January 16, 2017
To my baby boy,
We celebrated your one-year birthday today.
I can finally say that I understand why they don’t tell you what it really means to be a parent.
Before I became a parent, everyone warned me that I would never get sleep. They warned me that I could kiss my life goodbye. They warned me that my relationship with my husband would not be the same once you got here.
But what they didn’t tell me is that being your mama would be the most fulfilling thing I could ever do in my life. That being your mama would bring me so much joy that there are no words to describe it. That when I look into your eyes there would be a love so deep, so eternal, that our family would be even better because of you.
This last year has been its own kind of special. There have been hard nights, and even harder days. There has been loneliness, tears, feelings of emptiness, exhaustion, and way too many diapers.
But there has also been squeals of joy, peanut butter fingerprints on my kitchen table, wet kisses, toys in the bath tub, lots of snuggles, and little clothes in the dryer.
They don’t tell you what it really means to be a parent because there are no words to describe it. You only understand it once you are a parent. For that same reason, they don’t tell you why it is hard to watch your baby grow.
On this day, I can’t help but picture you going to your first day of Kindergarten. I can’t help but picture you getting baptized when you turn 8. I can’t help but picture you playing in your first sports game & seeing the ginormous smile on your daddy’s face. I can’t help but picture you going to your Senior Prom and thinking that you are in love. I can’t help but picture you serving other people on your 2-year mission. I can’t help but picture you getting married in the temple to the actual love of your life. And last of all, I can’t help but picture you holding your own baby boy for the first time and trying to explain the amount of love you feel.
On that day, my son, you will come to understand why they don’t tell you what it really means to be a parent.
Happy birthday to the boy who made me a mama! I love you forever & ever.
Here are some of the products that made our first birthday so much fun (may contain affiliates, but all opinions are my own):
1st Birthday Boy Shirt (12-18 Months)
1st Birthday Cake Smash Outfit (12-18 Months)
Melissa & Doug Take-Along Wooden Tool Kit (24 pieces)
Battat Mini Monster Trucks (6 trucks)