I came across this article about a month ago. As I read it, I couldn’t help but cry silently because this could have been the ending to my story. I know the overwhelming feelings of inadequacy and the depths of sorrow that Allison must have felt. I feel so sad that this was the ending to her story.
“To all those mothers out there experiencing some of these same feelings: you are not alone, and you are not a bad mother! PPD is lying to you. It is twisting your memories, feelings, and beliefs and reshaping them into an overwhelming falsehood.” – Julie, Allison’s friend
This is something I have thought about for a long time. Depression and anxiety are liars! They tell you every single minute of every single day that you will never be good enough; that you don’t deserve to even be a mother; that you don’t deserve to be alive. This is one of Satan’s greatest tools and I finally understand why. If Satan can attack the very core of your soul and tell you that you aren’t good enough, it affects everything you do as a mother.
“You will not be judged, only loved, as you seek help… Help is out there in many forms if we just seek it: loving friends, supportive husbands, counselors, support groups, and medication.” – Julie, Allison’s friend
Please, please, please know that if you are suffering, it is okay to reach out and get help. No one will judge you; they will respect that you were brave enough to get help. Just as this article states, if you will only open up about your own struggles as a new mama, it will help other women have the courage to do the same and we can help other women just like Allison.
If you think you are a bad mother, you are wrong. You are more than what your thoughts say you are.